I had been through trauma in my childhood so my mom wanted me to be in counseling to work on those issues. I was cutting and my mom started to look for a new counselor because the old ones hadn’t worked out. I had been through a lot of counselors and some of them were really bad. One told my mom that if I wanted to kill myself that she should let me. He would just tell me to do whatever I wanted even if it was destructive. I had another counselor that did not listen to me. One counselor called me fat – she was ultra-skinny and told me I was heavy and made me feel worse about myself.